Happy Birthday Ba.. I Miss You

The other day was your Birthday Ba. December 7th to be exact. I miss you. This was the first year I didn’t mail you a Birthday card for the longest that I can remember. I really miss that. I prayed of course. I lit up an incense and hope that you heard me. I mean, I think its starting to sink in. Sink in that every time something remarkable happens, I have this gut reaction to call you. Just to say, “Hey Ba, you’ll never guess what just happened…” But when I turn to call, I stop to pause… and then, that’s when I really realize, again. Again, I miss you. So much…

Sister tells me that you’ve never ever really liked your birthday, like it was a marker in the road that just reminded everyone that they were getting older. She prayed that you had a Happy Day, so I think that we’re good there. I totally get it though. I don’t like recognizing my Birthday either.. don’t get me wrong, I like the well wishes and the presents. But just the reminder that I’m getting older. Yeah, you’re right — no need for that stuff. lol! 🙂

You know I hear a lot of theories. About what happens in the Buddhist beliefs about the afterlife. A part of me, well, its just easier to believe that you’re currently moved on and happier. I do hope and pray that things are well.. even great, where you are. No more pain. No more worries…

I miss you here though.. lots. Well, Happy Birthday to you as you would’ve been 89.. I’m not far behind. Such as life. Love you. Miss you. And we’ll talk soon.. 🙂